"Entry" 13

Another disagreement…

She is bull-headed, obstinate…hurtful, sometimes…

I don’t mind, really…I am resilient…

I know what it is that I feel…I know that she cares not, and that is alright, for she need not…

I cannot endure another gutting…this promise I must keep…

But…

What right is it of mine, to keep an unwanted promise…

Does she know, I wonder…that I respect her…

Yet, what does it mean to respect another…

It must govern one’s behavior, lest it be rendered hollow and without conviction…

And this one must concede that it is impossible to give respect at a line, and also circumvent the other’s wishes…

I know that if I should ask her…she would see my watchfulness as a fool’s errand, and curse me…

To respect another, is to heed their spoken word…

Do I look upon her as my equal, or as a child…

One to permit the fates to ravage…the other, to suffocate beneath a rigid hand…

It was not answers that were promised to me, in that cell…

That which I know for certain, however, is this…the luxury of indecision is no longer mine…

"Entry" 13

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